Update

I'm still fat.

Damn it.

It's my own fault.

I fail at exercising. I blame my bad knee (even though the doctor said that I can do anything I want). I blame prior commitments (even though I count a TV show as a commitment). I blame the cold weather (even though I've gone walking in 29 degrees).

There really isn't any excuse.

I just suck at this.

I see diets where they seem to be perfect. I can give up meat. Sure I can.

Then I see a commercial for a steakhouse....























Bastards.

I just need to stop eating crap and stop thinking that a diet can start tomorrow.

A reality slap to the head might help.

I am capable of doing it.

I need to find my mojo again. The mojo before I had a set back. The mojo that I had even though my knee was hurting and it was cold and even though I have a DVR.

I have to.

Damn it.

Never be the Skinny Chick

I will never be the skinny chick. I don't want to be. Seriously, look at that chick? Is she sexy? Can you honestly say that you'd enjoy hugging that?

Didn't think so.

My daughter, who is only 8 years old, often asks me if I am trying to get skinny. She knows I go to the gym. I have a rubber ball to work on my core. I started eating better and I am in a Biggest Loser contest at work. She thinks that all of these things contribute to my quest to be skinny.

I usually have to correct her.

I will never be skinny. I never want to be.

I love having curves.

Women should be curvy.

At least that is my opinion.

I never want my daughter to think that she has to be skinny to be accepted. I never want her to think she has to starve herself or puke up her dinner to be accepted. She doesn't need to take weight loss pills. I also don't want her to work out to the point of exhaustion to be accepted.

I do want her to be healthy.

She should learn to make healthy choices in whatever she does. Whether it be eating or exercising, there is a healthy balance. This should start with me.

When she asks me if I am trying to get skinny, I correct her and I say that I am just trying to get healthy.

I am trying to set the example.

and I ain't no skinny chick.